Saturday, February 22, 2020

The Last of the Elysian Empire

I managed to avoid video games for the past two days, but I had a craving when I woke up this morning, and after a couple of hours of productivity I succumbed to it. I played for two hours and finally reached the goal that I had had since the beginning of the game, only to discover no sense of satisfaction upon reaching it and that the next goal was equally as immense and tedious. I quit and uninstalled the game.

The module for school this week was about learners with exceptionalities. In the textbook I encountered a very thought-provoking quote, which defined intelligence as “the ability to get what you want out of life by purposefully using your strengths to compensate for your weaknesses.” This parallels what I saw in the blog that I mentioned a few days ago, about learning new skills. I have had many, many goals in my life, but I have often looked at my failures or progress relative to these goals and given up. This also explains some of the appeal of video games—I make goals and usually I can make consistent and visual progress toward those goals. In some games progress be lost—I hate that so much that I restart or cheat, and if I can’t do that I will give up on the game, just like I give up in real life when faced with setbacks or lack of progress. The blogger I mentioned sets the example of examining these obstacles and considering how to overcome them. I’m sure for most of my life I would have said that this is a great skill, but only because I’ve seen how to do it laid out so clearly do I believe that I can do likewise.

Right now I’m working on some skills, but there are a lot more that I’d like to learn in the future. In addition to language learning, I’d like to learn how to talk to people, how to ask questions of anyone, pottery (more), ballroom dance (more), cooking (more), sewing, carpentry, farming, how to sing better, write fiction, write poetry, speak in different accents with consistency, play violin and piano, and many other skills that I may not have even encountered yet. For now, though, I’m experimenting with this way of living to see if I can apply it to this variety of areas.

Youtube has had a lot of ads for something called Master Class lately, where you take an online class with someone who is famous in their field. I’m skeptical of this because an expert (especially a popular one) doesn’t always make a good teacher, and it doesn’t help that most of the topics they advertise are trendy, plus they’re not usually interesting to me. But today I saw an ad for creative writing with Neil Gaiman, and he basically said that writing a rough draft is like driving through the fog, and writing a second draft is trying to make it seem like you knew what you were doing all along. That was very encouraging to me. Although I don’t find Neil Gaiman’s novels particularly cohesive, Faulkner said something that wasn’t dissimilar. After my last attempt to write a novel (I think it was in 2014), I had more or less told myself that I didn’t have the talent for it and I should just give up. I wouldn’t consider writing to be a strong desire of mine at the moment, but it is undeniably something that I have wanted to do since I was very young, and I think it’s something worthwhile, too.

Yesterday, I read about decision fatigue. I suspect that I’m more susceptible to it than most people because I put so much effort in every decision, but instead of making poor decisions (though I do that too), I usually just put off decisions when I get tired. This might even explain why I have so much trouble corresponding with people, and writing in general.

JAPANESE
知能というのは、長所が短所を補って生活の中で欲しいものを得る方法を見つける能力です。なお、知能がある人はほとんど他の人より強くて、大きくて、モテルひとです。
Yesterday, I wrote this translation of the two impressive points that I learned this week in school. I’m not sure what today’s text is going to be yet. To mine my vocabulary words, I just read a whole bunch of newspaper headlines, not seeing anything interesting enough to seem worth reading. Almost all of the articles were about the corona virus, which I don’t want to read about anymore. I might have to look for a new source of reading material.

5-MINUTE PLANK
Yesterday I did three plank sessions. The first two lasted 1:40, and in the last I held out for 1:45, which means that according to the original challenger’s definition I have passed this challenge. Still, I do want to see if it’s possible to hold a plank five minutes continuously, so I’m going to try for longer sessions from today. Counting today I have eight days left in the challenge, so I’m going to try to add 20 seconds each day, starting with 2:40 from today. In my first session this morning, I only managed 2:30.

DANCING
I started dancing for exercise over four years ago. In this time, I’ve learned a lot about dance styles, and I’ve learned a couple of neat moves. For the most part though, I look like an amateur who learned a few basic moves but doesn’t know how to use them well. My progress is depressing. Last night I got discouraged again, and I wanted to stop just twenty minutes into my session. Fatigue might have played a part in that too, and I’m also annoyed that I have to work so hard to avoid making the building shake. Plus, so many of my moves didn’t feel rhythmically appropriate for the music I was listening to.

PROGRAMMING
I had enough time to work on my program, but I felt a little overwhelmed by how much I had to do. I also felt lacking in confidence in my ability to correct bugs and implement features that can be used intuitively. I’ve got some steps broken down, but I think I can reduce them further into manageable tasks which will hopefully be less daunting.

BIBLE MEMORY
I reviewed Psalms 6 and 7 today. 7 is long and was originally rather difficult to memorize, and I found my memory of the middle section quite shaky. Even so, I think with a few days of review it will come back to me.

RUBIK’S CUBE
I’m adding this to the list—my goal will be to average under 40 seconds by the end of March. This is a mostly useless skill, but I’ve found that it helps me concentrate on other work and gives me a nice short break when I need it. Plus, I think it’s very easy to see progress with a Rubik’s cube because it’s such a physical activity, so I’m using it to test out this method of learning skills and, if it works, use my success as to encourage my learning of other skills. I mentioned earlier this week that my current solving average (as long as I don’t make mistakes) is about 70 seconds. I’ve since been learning some algorithms that should make my time faster in the long run, but so far it has only made my mistakes more frequent. I have one more PLL (fourth and final step) algorithm to learn, and then I’ll practice these algorithms and recognizing when to use them. I’m hoping I’ll be able to use these algorithms correctly (even if not speedily) by the end of February. From March, I plan to work on F2L, the second step, which is supposed to be done intuitively, and therefore will be the most difficult and require the most practice. Once I use this method consistently, I’ll start working on OLL algorithms, the third step. I’ve spent most of February working on my first step, so I think it’s doing a lot better than the rest.

One important thing that I need to remember in practicing this (and other skills as well) is that I need to be intentional. I’m really bad about this when I practice instruments, as I much prefer to play the whole song rather than practice short, problematic passages. The past few weeks with the Rubik’s cube has been mostly the same way—I solve it from start to finish instead of working on my weaknesses in each step. To discourage myself from doing this, I’m going to say that I can only record (time) two solves a day, and all my other plays must be paying attention to individual steps. I hope this won’t take the fun out of it.
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