Commitment

 I’m afraid of commitment. I guess that is true, now that I think about it. If I commit to something, I fully intend to follow through with it. On the other hand, that means that I am afraid to get out of my comfort zone because I am afraid that I won’t be able to follow through with anything. Speaking of which—church is one area where I should commit but have not been able to follow through. I might be able to chalk some of that up to the lack of commitment in other areas of my life. Maybe. In summary, I think that it would be a good thing for me to seek out more commitment. If things don’t work out because of other commitments, well, that’s probably still better than being under-committed.

In other news, last week was rough, and to recuperate (or rather, to revert to bad habits, or to seek out consolation in the wrong places), I have gone back to playing the cultivation simulator game. Hopefully the pit will not be as deep this time. I will also make provisions so that I have other things to do in the near future. I will talk to someone about being on the sub list tomorrow. I'll have a few last school-related tasks to take care of as well. Then, my joblessness begins on Thursday.

My goals for this week (Thursday-Saturday) are:

• Some kind of social activity
• Exercise in the morning, or afternoon if it's raining.
• 2+ hours Spring/Java
• 1 hour job search (3 x 20 minute bursts)
• Adjust website to be more professional
• Get website up and running

I think these are reasonable goals. Perhaps they are more modest than they need to be, but I am excited about doing them, and they are working up to full-time job searching that will take place next week.