Purposeless

In the end my day off finished without me getting a haircut. I went to the Indian restaurant with Wyatt, went climbing, and did a bit of cleaning. The climbing session was good, but my fingers were still in pain from Tuesday. Honestly they feel better today than they did yesterday (though they’re still resistant to movement). Hopefully they’ll be recovered by Sunday when I go climbing again.

I had some trouble sleeping last night, and for one of the first times in my life I think my back is sore enough that I would appreciate a massage. Yesterday I bought some candy that I wanted to try, and it was good, but I think it gave me nightmares, or rather it made me very anxious so that I woke up many times expecting to have to get up and I probably tossed and turned a lot. I have mostly cut out candy from my diet in favor of chewing gum, which is surely a good thing. It helps that there isn’t any really delicious candy available to me, unlike in America.

Today it’s really rainy. I strongly dislike walking to work in the rain. I don’t remember doing it at all in France, maybe because I seldom had to walk more than a couple of minutes thanks to public transport. In Russia I think the sidewalks were wide enough that I didn’t have to worry about cars splashing me. I remember it being really wet when the snow mostly melted, though, and jumping over puddles. One time I slipped in the muddy slush and kicked it onto a couple of people standing outside a convenience store. They were very unhappy with me.

I decided that I need to reevaluate my purpose. I have a direction in getting my master’s and trying out being an electrician, but once I get a job, then what? I don’t really have anything to work for. Thinking about this, I resolved to try harder at investing in my spiritual life. Last night I read a devotional that mom bought me for about 15 minutes. Honestly, I barely remember anything now, but it was interesting enough that I don’t mind trying to continue it.

This weekend is the Halloween party in Shiojiri. My pirate costume is nice, but I would like to procure a beard and maybe an eye patch or hook if possible. But that would mean going to Matsumoto in the morning, and I can’t really see myself being motivated enough to do that. We’ll see.