僕にとって、一番怖いいことは平凡な存在になることかな。なぜなら、人は楽しむためだけではなく、世界に価値を寄せるために生きるんだと信じています。平凡な存在というのは、価値を寄せられない存在です。
Yesterday at work I worked a little bit on my schoolwork, but for the most part I wrote the yesterday's giant post and pondered over it. I also looked for no-equipment arm-building exercises that weren't push-ups (no luck) and jobs at Christian schools. The latter was interesting, and I realized that I could have conceivably gotten a job years ago. At this point though, I'm not going to do so until I finish my degree. Even though I only had two classes, after school and grocery shopping I felt a bit strung out and ended up browsing the web and watching youtube for an hour and a half. About half the time was spent fairly productively by watching dance videos. After exercising I did spend about twenty minutes on schoolwork, then programmed a bit before reading and sleep.
My current book is about the four significant rulers in the first half of the 16th century: Henry VIII, Francis I, Charles V, and Suleiman the Magnificent. I read about how Henry VIII invaded France and captured two small towns, then came back to England in the middle of a Scottish uprising which was viciously put down. I could see both events happening in Europa Universalis, and it gave me a strong desire to revisit the game. The name Angoulême is so evocative. Accordingly, after working on my paper for a bit, I allowed myself to download it. This took over an hour, and by the time it was done I had nearly finished one part of my assignment. I finished it, but also procrastinated procrastination by completing items from my habit list. I programmed for an hour, wrote in Japanese, and now I'm writing in English. With this finished, though, I'm afraid my only options are to try working on the last part of my assignment (I'm not sure I have enough willpower to last long there) or play my game. I had two more ideas for the weekend: shopping and talking with Big D. Both of them were contingent upon my finishing the assignment in a timely manner. Well, maybe this time will be like all the recent times that I've loaded up EU4--I try to set up the conditions for about ten minutes, despair at the complexity, and give up. I've told myself that it's a shame to lose my 15-day video game-free streak. If I were at home, I would try some kind of hobby, like sewing or woodworking. Here, all I have are programming, which I'm not interested in revisiting now, and circuitry, which seems pointless at the moment.
About a week ago I read an article about a woman who tried to do a plank for five minutes every day for a month. In the end she only managed the whole five minutes on the last day spread over several sessions, so it was a bit of clickbait, but it got me thinking (self-efficacy), maybe I could do that. I'm not happy with my posture, and it seems like planks do help with that as well as strengthening abs and arms. Five minutes seems like a decent goal, too. So yesterday I managed 2 minutes 45 seconds over two sessions. I did this during my workout, which also includes sit-ups and floor sprints which work some of the same muscles. My goal is to be able to do a total of four minutes next Sunday.
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